Stars

"I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night." -Galileo

I have reciently fallen in love with the above quote. I don't know exactly what it is that makes me love it so much but I do. Maybe it's because I don't fear the night. I don't fear the darkness in which monsters hide. Because even in the darkest part of night you can find the stars.

"Chelsea was obsessed with the stars. She thought they were signals from heaven showing people the way home." -Bones s2 e21

Isn't that a beautiful thought? That the stars are there to guide us home to Christ. I don't know if the intent of the quote was to imply home was heaven but that's what it is for me. Home. Heaven. Our final destination. A place where family can watch over us after they're gone. Something that we can see, heaven is hard to imagine. None of us know what it looks like unless we've died and come back (like the "Heaven is for Real" kid). For me the stars are a reminder that heaven is up there. It might not be a star, might be beyond them but won't they be beautiful surrounding the Earth?

Side thought. Isn't it amazing that God can make the stars, these beautiful amazing things and he takes time to make us? Like he made every inch of me, every grain of sand and every star. So. Cool. I love that He is so damn cool. I hope God is okay with me saying he's "damn cool" cuz he is. SO COOL. 

Faith

Sometimes I worry that people judge me because of my faith. I know that I shouldn't care but I kind of do. Like, just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that I'm perfect. Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that everything in my life is perfect. My mom gave me this little plaque thing that says "When life gets tough, toughen your Faith." I love this quote because of what's been going on in my life. I've recently lost a grandparent and my dog. It's been hard and I don't like the feeling. It's hard to let go of the pain and it's hard to understand why I'm being put through all of this. It sucks. But I know that I won't loose the Faith I have just so that people won't judge me. I rather be judged for that than anything else.

Frustrated

I'm just frustrated in general right now. Things seem to be piling up in all the wrong ways.
First there's work: I just started a new job and as much as I love it right now all my training classes are messing with my classes.

Second there's school: I have two tests tomorrow and work from 9-4. My tests? At 10 and 2. Can I get out of this? No. Can I reschedule either test? Possibly. But it's looking like a no.

Third there's my parents: They "want me to come with on spring break" then FREAK OUT at me because I want to come. What? It doesn't make sense I know. What the hell right? I'm seriously at the point where I just don't know what to do. I got into a fight with both my parents at different times where I ended up crying. A) I don't cry often and B) I'm a daddy's girl so if I get in a fight with him it's a BIG deal.

I'm just to the point where I'm like screw it and I'm going to crawl into bed and not come out for a week or so. I'm going to have to pay rent this month (my new roommates didn't want me to have to pay for 2 places in one month (wonderful people I know)) and I need to pay for my Compassion Child Steffany and I have to send some packages that I sold on Ebay.

Oh God.

I WILL NOT ask for any more money. I won't. I will starve first, I'm sure that'll help my ever increasing waistline. Oh and there's another thing I need to pay for, Weight Watchers. And no, I'm not ashamed of that, I'm proud of myself. This time, I'm doing it for ME. I'm strong enough to ask for help and damn it I'm gonna kick this thing in the ass.

Wish me luck world...

Thrift Store Shopping

Okay, that's it. I need to get into the thrift store business. And when I say business I mean me going there and buying stuff.
Lately I've been absolutely obsessed with the website pinterest. If you don't know what that is I HIGHLY recommend it. It's so dang cool that I can't even describe it. But anyways, I've been all over this website pinning to my heart's content and I found a pin where a girl has been taking dresses from thrift stores and making them into "new dresses" out of them. I've decided that this is what I want to start doing.

Step one: Get Grandma's sewing machine

Step two: Learn how to alter dresses

Step three: Find said dresses

Step four: ta da!!

So here goes, my latest adventure :)

Hello :)

So since everyone I know is going places and doing things and starting blogs I thought I'd start one too. Sadly mine won't be as exciting until at least spring break, but still I thought it'd be fun! 

I'm a 21 year old college student, I'm in Minnesota and am studying to be a Youth Ministry Worker. I'm working on my Psychology degree with a Mass Communications minor.

Again, sorry that this is so boring but I need to change somethings in my life, and I thought this would be fun.